May 18, 2010 was the date he told me about his feelings. he confessed, finally, that he loves me. i couldn't look at him, i kept asking questions, clarifying things my instinct told me before . most are true.
im the type of person who doesnt sit still when gray areas are present in any kind of relationship of mine.
but when i heard him say he loves me-a confirmation to my instinct, i didnt know exactly how to react and deal with the situation.
im not yet telling him exactly what i feel for him. but, i think he knows i care for him and we have the same feelings for each other.
i told him im afraid because the emotions im feeling at present are new to me and im not quite sure how ill handle it.
the next day he told me, he couldnt respond well to my answer that time because he feels the same way too.
we're both new to the things we're feeling.
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they tell me im shy.prim and proper type of girl and warned me these kind og girls have wildness inside of them. they're the one who gets pregnant earlier than their classmates.
i have a strong principle of staying a virgin until i get married. but then, im easily see prospects out of guys i meet that qualify my ideal standards (but they're temporary, they last long enough for me to realize its not love im feeling or anything and just plain crush.
but what if i wouldnt be able to control my feelings when im in love and act fool as most in love persons do/act.
i dont like couples who displays their affection publicly. but i like it when he holds my hand and caress it.
i dont like it when i miss him or think abut him numerously in just a day.
i dont like it when he doesnt assure me he loves me.
i dont like it when im liking his attention in me.
i dont like it that i still like him even if see things improper (manners) on him.
but there, i accept those things.
what if i become a fool
what if i get hurt too much
why cant i believe someone could/would really love me, tha i actually have a partner in life just for me>??
