Looking Forward to This

Looking Forward to This
-FREEDOMM-

Saturday, September 18, 2010

day spent alone

nabasa ko sa FB ko sa "God wants you to know" that if i need inspiration, i have to get out. step on earth, breathe fresh air. since, im in Manila, breathing fresh air is unlikely going to happen so i just went out and enjoyed what Manila has to offer.

i called friends and asked them about their dreams. then, i asked advice from a friend whom i treat as my big sister.

papuntang mall habang nasa jeep, nakaisip ako ng isang story concept. :)

then went to the cinema and bought a ticket- Despicable Me, which wouldn't be shown after an hour so...

i ate at Joey Pepperoni, ordered there cheapest offer- Carbonara, Tuna Panini, and iced tea for 145.00. Yum, yum! i'll go back there, for sure.

then, finally watched the Cinema! :D

after that, i went to my alumni's Basilica, stayed and found peace.

then, went to my alumni's library. sakto nga eh umalis guard kaya nakalusot ko. although, i could enter pa din naman because of my alumni card. that was 6.30 PM

then, i had a half-body massage.

nasa jeep na ako pauwi, and nakaisip ulit ako ng isa pang story concept good for movie.

hindi siya typical love story or family story. individual story siya na a bit of family and love, etc. i want it to be shown sa mainstream. at sana maisulat ko siya ng mabuti.

haha

;]

Facebook Notes since July 2010

My Facebook Notes

REVERIE.8
July 26, 2010 12:14 AM
napagtanto ko lang ngayon, ive been denying myself of my sentiments about something that has to do with someone that led to something else.

kaya pala parang nalulungkot ang isang tao ng wala namang dahilan (that's what we want to believe sometimes, that its just nothing). its not a good feeling but what can i do, decisions have been made. im disappointed. ang dali namang sumuko.

this could actually be the right circumstances we must be dealing with. it must be. for why did it happen for no reason at all. this could make him grow as a mature man (as well as i).

its a good thing, i have acknowledged my feelings. at least now, i know what to resolve.

when in the dark, there's always going to be a source of light. its just up to me how to find and eventually follow it and bring myself back out of that gloomy night. God has a perfect plan for us.

this is nothing. eh?


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JULY 26, 12:14AM
REVERIE.7
July 17, 2010 10:51 PM
magaling sa magaling pero kung ang turing walang dating, wala din.

risk it all if you must but never your principle.

madaling mangarap lalo na pag natatanaw mo pa ito sa malayo.
pero pag palapit ka na sa pangarap mo, nasusubok ang katatagan mo- lalo na ang prinsipyo mo.

marami ka pang matututunan, but in the process, never see yourself as incapable because if you do, you'll never strive to do more than you can. be the best you can be and yet knowing that you still don't know it all.

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REVERIE.6
June 27, 2010 1:12 PM
Enough about feelings that are deceiving.
Enough with thoughts that are weakening.
Just enough with the bunch of things i know i can't understand or answer right now.

Let's move on to the things that matter today.

Sometimes, it takes an article or a piece of thought from someone else to realize how petty the things i worry about these past few days. I've been affected by the mere thought of being where i am now. I've been thoughtless.

I am not in a classroom setting anymore where my misgivings could be forgiven or failures could be remedied without much effort.

Nevertheless, this doesn't mean not enjoying the things i love. The position I'm in is what i wanted, in the first place. But i miss my past colleagues and i owe i lot from them. And I'll be forever grateful for the experience and lessons i brought with me when i left their sanctuary. My work before was fun, and i got the chance to meet people i never expected to meet or better yet be friends with. It was splendid, marvelous, and fantastic. You would be overwhelmed and humbled by their personalities amidst their respected and/or glamorous position in their industry. Now, i have to keep in mind these people. I may not be with them anymore, but i know, that my memory of them is enough to help me be the person i wanted to be.

Right now, I'm moving on to the life i wanted and dreamed about. Before, i thought my first job was what i prayed for so i stuck with it. But my first love kept on knocking so i grabbed it in the end. Now, i realized He gave me the first one as a weapon for my dream job. I needed the experience and the inspiration i got from the people from my previous work so i could be equipped and ready with the kind of world of my dream job.

May i always be reminded of this.

Thanks, God.

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REVERIE.5
June 26, 2010 10:51 AM
(2)im not asking for a boyfriend that nags (and just talk) alone.
(1)im asking for a best friend that cares (and does something about it) genuinely.

(2)not this kind of lines:
"i dont want you to do that or this, etc."

(1)this one:
"don't do that. ok, where are you exactly, wait for me. you might need my help."
or
"fine, do what you want, but can i see you after that."

that kind of line.

it would piss me off if i find a guy i want to be (1) but would turn out to be (2).
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REVERIE.4
June 13, 2010 2:58 AM
boys vs girls 1

'girls don't always mean what they say.
and
boys don't always remember what they said.'

when girls say the opposite of what they really want, that means the boys are being tested.
girls, by nature, want to be pursued. hence, unconsciously or not, they insist on things they would eventually hate when the boys did exactly what they were asked to do.

boys usually take things literally. and because they want to please the girl, they do exactly what they say. (now, maybe, these is where petty quarrels start)

on the other hand, boys are usually foresighted. a sweet gesture would be natural for them , a no-big-deal for someone they care about. they would feel relief of having helped, yes, and of becoming, let's just say, a 'knight in shining armor' but then they'll will move on to the next bigger task.

big things matter for boys.
but
small things would matter to girls.

but girls, they would treasure moments (of gestures, perhaps) with boys longer than you'd expect. sometimes it would serve as their source of strength or affirmation of 'love', to forgive and still 'love' the person or worst, endure the person.

yeah, girls are sentimental.
when they care for someone, they think a lot. they give a lot. they forgive a lot.
But when they were hurt so much, they could set their mind really hard and end up the survivor in the break-up but still love the man, silently. after proving they could survive without the other they would gradually move on, by themselves. but when they really had moved on to someone, its hard getting back to them.

girls are submissive, yes, and soft, but when they really have moved on, they're lethal, mind you.

and boys, i don't know. not really.


FYI: all of these, i just deduced from observations, experience, but mostly from friends' stories.

do you have scenarios like these??
frustrating, eh? how different these two sexes are
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REVERIE.3
June 7, 2010 6:33 PM
muntik ng mawala pangarap ko.



do i really have to wait for something to be at stake for me to really make up my mind of the things i want to achieve?? to feel threatened to loose something i dream??--to really be SURE of myself??to really prepare myself of the things i must do to achieve it??to DETERMINE myself??

the incident today made me realize that not everything's easy. it also proved,

if you want something so bad, you have to give your all--by that, i meant, more than your best.

PS: Thank you, God. You never left me. thank You for this experience.
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REVERIE.2
June 7, 2010 12:04 AM
there's a right time for everything.

if we let our emotions take charge of our actions, it'll be sweet, and happy but temporarily. giving in to pure emotions wouldn't work out for us because at the moment, our hearts are weak and our mind-sets not ready for a commitment.

i like you, but not today. we'd be together someday. and when that day comes, you'll have me by heart
and by soul.

that's , if we're really meant to be.

wait if you want. still, wait if you can--wait if you must.

but wait patiently, lovingly, accepting and understanding,
until the right time comes.



...naks!(wandering thoughts, eh?)
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REVERIE.1
June 4, 2010 12:00 PM
a person would do the right thing for the right partner.

a man who loves you truly doesn't need instructions of how to win your heart, he just acts in accordance to his feelings.

a man that's good for you, doesn't only loves what he sees, but loves more what he doesn't see in you. he also appreciates the people you treasure. he makes effort, but for him its no effort at all, because he's just loving, its the way it is. no big deal. but looking beyond his actions, you'd feel how he's changing the you see him in the things that he did. you start to appreciate him, and you'll just be thankful for having a man like him.

swell.

hope i experience that.

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death and regrets
November 20, 2009 12:42 AM
...you have seen him, talked with him, but never really tried to have a good long talk thinking there would be next time for that, and because there's still a lot of things to do, more exciting, more thrilling. but, actually, you fear the awkward silence when you don't know any more what to say. you fear the judgment coming if he surmises your clandestine. you fear disappointing him. you fear a lot of things that's why you do nothing to reach him. until its too late.so, you went away.

...now i fear going back not seeing him when i get there.now, i realized no action is already an action for it has its effect too, for no action may mean a lot of things (mostly negative) and thus, result to consequences you might later regret. i ask myself,what else to do? where else to go?i wont fool myself, i already know the answer, obviously.nowhere.he went away, already.

...now, you're left thinking, what have he thought of me? did he knew i love him?did he knew it always makes me welcome and it meant a great deal to me that whenever i visit my father's house he smiles, is concern, and is eager to see me. that he always makes me feel accepted or still belonged to the family even if i seldom go back any more?thou, i want to.'oh please make my troubles away and make him stay', i want to pray.

death could really make you realize how regretful your actions were and it really is burdensome. it is to me.and that's frustrating to know. i just hope lolo died in peace. but what i am grateful about all of this is knowing he wouldn't be missing lola any more. they are on their own now.


but i'm not saying i didn't do nothing at all, i want to believe that... those i did made come true with him,well, may not be the best, but good memories i will be leaving him. i am not fully satisfied, but they're all i've got. and i will treasure all my memories with him.

just some advice using cliches:it is never too late to a person who's living. grab it now or regret later. know you that you love and then act on it. because love is an action on itself. not just a mere thought. well, that's to people who wants their feelings be known and so take some action.

i pray my titas and tito, and other loved ones of lolo will make it through. i know God will make them stronger and be closer to each other. it will.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

RANDOM LINES.9

i could never make a perfect decision for myself until i make one. and that perfect decision is not always the 'right' one in the eyes of majority but what the heck, at least i made a choice to make a seemingly wrong decision into a perfect one.just for me.