yes, believe, but.

i didn't know that i don't know how to write. just amazing, right?
nah. i knew.

well, writing the proper way. one thing about righting on your OWN blog is you OWN it. therefore, you only have rules that is convenient for you.

anyway, it is disheartening.

and i didn't know i was becoming someone i don't want to be.
they tell me i am too confident. and i was thinking and reasoning, i'm confident for i believe God has in stored greater things for me.that is right. but in the process, i failed myself.

How could i believe in God's greater plan for me, when i don't believe in myself?
i fantasied being great and successful but when reality asks something from me, i cower and produce something not so great.

i feared and then thought of giving up thinking 'maybe i am up to lesser things in this world'. i am so ready going back to my comfort zone. i am creating reasons why i should give up untarnished. but who am i kidding?

really, humility is important not just because it is a value every mother would advice you to have. but the thing is, humility would always question yourself if you are doing the right things and make even the smallest deal worthy of your gratefulness and care. these things would make you a great person.

speaking of greatness, being great is not surmountable to quantity of life, you know. its always the quality or your way of living. but not how luxurious you live your life but how blessed you feel, how content you are, how you find joy in every small thing you do, and how productive and helpful are your relationships.

greatness inside is way more valuable than greatness outside. God wants us to believe in ourselves, to be proud of ourselves and not just depend solely in Him. He will be there, that's unquestionable but be someone deserving of that much attention and care.

and so, MOVE.